I can’t help but think of him. Today I had a horrible thought. Someone told me they wanted to kill themselves. I wasn’t sure if they were serious or not but it didn’t happen. But I’m not good at that kinda stuff. I’ll try and show my support by showing that they are need here but still I’m no good thinking about it. So he came to mind. He’s the one I told everything to. When ever my parents would tell at me or when one of my friends were mad at me, he was always there and he always knew what to say. But now that I’m writing about him, I remember he told me he had no respect for people who have no self esteem ad for people who want to kill themselves. I am so insecure my self esteem is so low to the ground and here this guy is basically telling me he didn’t respect me. So I guess seeing one of the bad things in him Is helping me get over him. I love him. I think I always will but it doesn’t mean I need to go crawling back to him. I deserve better. You deserve better. We all deserve better.